Here comes the day when we celebrate mothers' day while you are not physically with us.
It is a strange new feeling , feels so empty and meaningless without you. As if the whole commercial mothers gifts mantra was revolving around you when you were alive and now it disappeared after you are gone and to the opposite bring winds of emotions of separation. It is not the same, it is not the same anymore. I will try to relive with memories , with photos or videos of days gone by , but I will never ever see on that day again in this life; this feels so sad yet true and striking. Reality strikes with its hammer!
What can I do to fill this void, the problem with losing your mother is more complex than missing the default free tenderness umbrella in your life, it is missing the existensial cornerstone of your emotional support and empathy. You lose your biggest fan. You are playing on your own now!
No one can feel the loss until they suffer it and any coping mechanism to deal with grief doesn't substitute the obvious, she is gone, the emptiness can't be filled.
What I ll do is pray for kindness, pray for love, pray for courage , thank god for being lucky for having my mother for a longer time than many poeople, pray she is feeling good now in heaven , looking at her photos and smile and spread words of love and gratitude with people I love , love you Mama
